Time for a change.

So many things have changed in my life in the last year...
My mother in law died of complications from Alzheimers.
My stepdad died of old age. (88)
My sister died at 68 of... well, I'm not sure~ multiple factors.
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Zao died at 10 from diabetes and kidney failure.
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And then, I was hospitalized with Grand Mal Seizures. Which caused my BP to drop to 68/42... my kidneys failed, and now I have many specialists, Neurologists and Nephrologists among them. I could have died but I didn't, but my ability to drive my car was taken away.
Because of this, I resigned from my job as Children's Director for CBS, a job I've had for 5 years.

Well, whoever knows what will happen? Autumn is my favorite season by far~ and truly, last year could have been my last autumn. And I felt so young, then! I wonder if this will be the last autumn for me.

I'm looking forward to a quiet winter of reflection, with no icy 5:30 a.m. drives, and spending time discerning what is next.
I really, really, miss my Biggy Bud,~ how CAN I replace SUCH a cosmic guy?
And Betty..... sis where are you???????? I need your wisdom! And if not that, your temper! lol

I GUESS THIS IS LIFE, TRYING TO FIGURE IT OUT AS YOU GO.
It'a time for a real change for me, a change which will hold me in place for the future. No matter what. Cause "what" is on it's way.

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PAULA